Another year done! Why is it Christmas just flies by? There’s so much prep towards it and then boom it’s done. I think I’ve realised that I actually prefer the build up. It’s been a nice distraction this year from all the craziness.
Usually I get so depressed at this time of year, once the build up to Christmas is over, but I feel different this year. Maybe I’ve learnt that just because a good thing has ended it doesn’t mean that it’s all over and there’s more to look forward to in life than one event a year (even if it is one of the most exciting events)- for me anyway.
Adeline’s learning fast though, just this morning she asked where Santa was and her presents. Thom brutually broke it to her that Christmas was over. I’m glad I wasn’t there to see the look on her little angelic face. So I think it’s safe to say I’ve nurtured my love of Christmas onto Adeline just as my parents did to me!
A different Christmas…
How was your Christmas? I don’t know if it was the pregnancy hormones, but after the tier 4 announcement I was so emotional. It didn’t effect us as such, but my brother & his wife were unable to join us as planned which broke my heart (they are down south). So our plans did quickly change.
I was so excited to host Christmas for the first time in our new home! I put a lot of time and effort into planning it, buying all sorts for the Christmas table-scape, planning the food, drink, games and gifts! To be then told (after previous announcement said that If we locked down before Christmas we would be safe to have Christmas with our family) to then be told they actually couldn’t join (only days before) it was a massive shock and it felt like an arrow through the heart.
Now before you think ‘it could be worse’ I know that, but I’ve also learnt that just because your situation isn’t as bad as somebody else’s that doesn’t mean that you can’t be upset either. So I allowed myself to be upset and I did shed a tear or two… mainly I was just angry and fed up with it all. I still can’t believe how long we have all been adapting our lives to this pandemic. It’s crazy, and I’m sure they’ll be some movie made about it in years to come.
I mean this whole situation has been nearly a year long, we all have our own personal situations going on, but at the end of the day it’s hard to put on a brave face whatever the situation is after this long. I’ve come to realise that you are allowed to be angry, and upset and quite frankly pissed off. It’s healthy to feel that way and important to express that. We all have a breaking point. And we all have our up days and down days. The only positives are is that we are ALL going through this and it’s been nice to have a supportive network of people pulling you up when you’re down and vice versa.
So through the tragic news, tears shed and anger shared the only thing to do was carry on. Children are a great distraction and they’ll always help you forget, after all Christmas really is even more magical when you have Children. So we did just that, we kept the Christmas cheer in full swing and carried on and made the best out of the situation.
It was a different Christmas, relaxing but still magical & it was also a weirdly emotional day- for me anyway. Watching Adeline open her presents in the morning was so heart warming, and ending the day with her saying to- and I quote;
“I’ve had a lovely day today Mummy”.
Nothing could make me happier then those simple words. It melted me!
To have both sets of parents in our house surrounded with love, laughter, food and drink was something I’ll never forget. It’s like I forgot that we used to do that, didn’t we? You know socialise, have a house full. It’s been so long I almost forgot! I feel like we took it all for granted. Adeline was in her element, having so many loved ones to play with in the same room! I’ll never forget the joyous look on her face and everyone else’s!
QUESTION: Do you find yourself (when watching tv or a movie) that when people are in rooms together in close proximity, or hugging, kissing, shaking hands, you know the simple things and find it weird or odd or think wow you’ll get corona! I think it’s crazy how you can get used to something pretty quickly. And pretty sad as well.
A New Year
So as 2021 approaches and the new news of an even better vaccine I am filled with hope and optimism that 2021 will be a whole lot better. We have our new baby due in February and lots to look forward to.
Even though 2020 has been one hell of a year it’s also had its positives. I think we will all have learnt to appreciate those around us. Family and friends. I will be seizing every opportunity I get thrown at me in the new year and hoping that as things go slowly back to ‘normal’ we will enjoy every minute just that little bit more than before! I’m excited and I’ll never look back again.
I would love to hear your New Year Goals. So drop me a message.
Thanks for listening!